Finding Solace in Faith: You Are Never Alone

navigating through our emotions

“My thoughts were destroying me.

I tried not to think,

But the silence

Was a killer too.”

I recently got into painting and I have to say after reading it has become one of my beloved hobbies. This piece holds a very special place in my heart. firstly it’s a reminder to myself that life isn’t always pretty, we all go through hurdles but the only thing that matters is coming out stronger in the end. secondly and the main message from my painting is to all those who feel alone, unheard or misunderstood, i get you. it can be very difficult at times when you think no one gets you or you’re alone in it. You’re not because somewhere in the world someone is feeling those same feelings. These thoughts spiral through our brains and consume us.

‘i am fat’

‘i am broken’

‘i am a failure’

‘i am not worthy’

‘i am never enough’

‘i feel alone’

‘i feel unloved’

‘there is no hope’

‘i feel alone and scared’

you are never alone, you were never alone, you’ll never be alone

لااتهذن انالله معن

Do not be scared, Allah is with us.

Always remind yourself that you’ve never been alone, Al Haadi has been with you guiding you and will ALWAYS be with you. Even if the whole world was to turn against you He will always be by your side. I always remind myself whenever i hit a rough patch that Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَ is with me and He will never let me down. I have a daily reminder on my phone that says ‘Allah will never let you down’ When things do not go as expected I always turn back to that.

‘I am not worthy’

Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَ chose you to be a human, to me that shows the utmost level of worthiness. you are more sacred to Allah than the ka’abah. deeply reflect on that. Humans are the best of creation. Allah says in Al Isra Verse 70:

‘Indeed, We have dignified the children of Adam, carried them on land and sea, granted them good and lawful provisions, and privileged them far above many of Our creatures.’

Whenever you feel unworthy remember Allah has chosen YOU, that should be enough.

You deserve it, You are worthy, You are enough.

Broken

No one is ever too broken, you stand up on your feet stronger than ever ! Al Jabbar is the mender of broken hearts. Al Jabbar is the One who consoles hearts, so seek strength from Him.

Allahumma Juburni (Ya Allah console me)

Numb

After the hardship ease always awaits you. no hardship does not follow ease. Allah will honour you after the hardship.

Helpless/Grief

Asking for help is not easy, it’s not meant to be easy. to me it feels like saying ‘hi i am weak and mentally unstable’. Asking for help is a big step and something you should be proud of because masking our feelings is the worst thing ever trust me I have been there. Those times where I felt like no one would understand or I wasn't comfortable talking to anyone, I would turn to Allah and stay consistent with tahajjud. In sujood; removal of burdens, the release of anxiety, the weight of the dunya is lifted, dua is answered, sukun/tranquillity is found, peace of mind/body/soul as we prostrate to our Rabb, Speak to your Lord and remember that He is As Sami.

Our past may be the thing holding us back, remember your past does not define you. If Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَ is able to forgive all your past sins who are people to judge you for it. Block out those voices in your head and look far ahead at the goal; your akhira. Do not let judgements ruin your next life, That’s the worst thing you could ever do to yourself. Always think of these verse from Al-Mutaffifin:

‘Verily, during this worldly life those who committed crimes used to laugh at those who believed’ (83: 29)

‘But they (disbelievers, sinners) had not been sent as watchers over them (the believers),

But this day (Day of Resurrection), those who believed would laugh at the disbelievers,

On (high) thrones, looking (at all things)’. (83: 34-36)

These verses should be a reminder to focus on the goal and neglect people who try to weigh you down.

Confused 

Whenever you feel like living is boring and has no purpose, it is all from the whispers of shaytaan. Shaytaan makes sure he finds us when we are at our lowest and corrupts our thoughts just like he deceived our parents Adam and Hauwa to descend from heaven to earth. Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَ told us in verse 38 of Al Baqarah:

Descend all of you! Then when guidance comes to you from Me, whoever follows it, there will be no fear for them, nor will they grieve.

Seek guidance from Al-Haadi, we would all be lost without His guidance. Call unto him at the last third of the night, make dua, have tawwakul leave everything to Al-Mujeeb (The Responder). He loves for us to call unto Him, He responds to the plea of those who plead to Him and makes a way out for them.

Unloved

Allah سُبْحَٰنَهُۥ وَتَعَٰلَ is Al Wadud(the Most Loving), He loves you more than your mother loves you. He will always love you, hold onto that affirmation.

‘Allah loves me more than i love myself’

Ask yourself

Will all these matter when Allah says

وَٱدْخُلِى جَنَّتِى

‘…and enter my paradise’

AFFIRMATIONS

Dua of the day

Ya Jabbar restore my heart and make it better than it was. Even in the face of uncertainty, give me the ability to sit with my emotions, to allow myself to be unsure, to allow myself to not know but still have the certainty and strong belief that you are Al Wakeel and there’s no one better to leave my affairs to.

Salam Alaykum,

I am embarassed to be publishing this after months, I tend to start things and not stay consistent. I have so many topics and drafts but procrastination got the best of me. Post Ramadan depression came in strong this year, I struggled a lot but Alhamdulillah ala kulli haal. I am sure by reading this one would assume i have got my life together but no we are all on our individual healing journeys. May Allah reward us for our afflictions. This is to all the people struggling with mental health issues and feel unimportant, unheard and alone. I’m going to link my Instagram to anyone who wants to talk, my dms will always be open. You can also send a message on the substack app.

We are in the best days, the first 10 days of Dhul Hajj. I am gonna share a few duas with you all;

1. Allahumma inni as'aluka minal-khayri kullihi ajilihi wa ajilihi ma alimtu minhu wa ma lam 'alam. Wa a'udhu bika minash-sharri kullihi ajilihi wa ajilihi ma 'alimtu minhu wa ma lam 'alam.

-O Allah, I ask You for all that is good in this world and in the Hereafter, what I know and what I do not know. O Allah, I seek refuge with You from all evil in this world and in the Hereafter what I know and what I do not know

2. Allahumma inni as'aluka min al-khayri ma sa'alaka ‘abduka wa nabbiyuka Muhammadun sallallahu 'alaihi wasallam, wa a'oodhu bika min sharri ma'aadha minhu 'abduka wa nabbiyuka Muhammad sallallahu alaihi wasallam.

   -Oh Allah, I ask of you all the goodness which Muhammad (SAW) asked of, and I seek refuge in all the things from which Muhammad (SAWS) has sought refuge from.

3. Allaahumma innee as-aluka al – Jannah, wa maa qarraba ilayhaa min qawl aw ‘amal, wa Audhubika min an-Naar wa maa qarraba ilayhaa min qawl aw ‘amal.

   -O Allaah, I ask of You for Paradise and that which brings me closer to it of statements or actions. And I seek refuge with You from the Hellfire and that which takes me closer to it of statements or actions.

4. Allhumma inni a'uzubika min jahdil bala i, wa darakishika i,wa soo il qadha i, washama tatil a'ada

   -O Allah I seek refuge in YOU from severe calamities and hardships, grips of ill hope, evil destiny and from rejoicing of enemies

5. Allahumma abdil qalaqi sakinah, Wa hammi inshirähan, Wa-sakhti ridhan, Wa khawfi tamaanina

   -O Allah, replace my anxiety with serenity, and (replace) my worries with relief, and my anger with contentment and my fears with tranquillity.

My friend lost her mum a few days ago, I would really appreciate if you take a minute to make dua for her, may Allah reward you as you do.

Allaahummaghfir li Aisha warfa' darajatahu fil-mahdiyyeena, wakhlufha fee 'agibiha fil-ghaabireena, waghfir lanaa wa laha yaa Rabbal-'aalameena, wafsah laha fee gabriha wa nawwir laha feehi. Allahummaghfir laha warhamha, Allahuma ij'al qabariha rawdah min riyadil jannah, Allahumma giha fitnatul gabr, Allahumma wassi qabraha wa adkhilha noora, Allahumma adkhilhal jannah.

May all our supplications be answered on the day of Arafah.